My life has
not been easy,
The path has
not been clear,
Neither does
my future,
Future look
to be.
Consistency was
but,
But a distant
dream,
On a path
filled with pain,
On a path
filled with obstacles.
Obstacles
with no end in sight.
One thing that
has remained,
Remained
through,
Through,
Abandonment,
Depression, Loneliness,
Grief
Hopelessness,
Desperation,
And many
other things,
Is my faith
in God,
Although
that faith has,
Has waxed
and waned.
Over the
years,
It has
always been,
And still remains,
Ever
present.
Even now,
When
fighting back tears,
When holding
in crushing pain,
When feeling
lonely and afraid,
When feeling
hopelessness
And many
more things,
Even now,
in all of this,
My faith
still remains.
Without my
faith,
And without
the,
The few friends
I have,
I’m not sure
where,
Where I would
be right now,
Although I fear,
Fear it
would be tragic.
My faith and
friends,
Despite my faith
being weak,
And my
support little.
These
things,
Are the reason
I fight,
The reason I
press forward,
Not wanting
to give up,
Give up on
my friends,
Give up on
my faith,
Or Give up
on Myself.
Although
giving up on myself,
That is the
hardest reason,
Reason to
fight for.
Especially with
the,
The hopelessness
that surrounds.
But because
of my friends,
And because
of my faith,
I cannot
give up,
Although I often
wish,
Wish giving
up was,
Was something
I could do,
I must keep
going.
As my friends,
And my faith,
Are not just
things I,
I continue
this fight for,
But are also
a part,
Part of
myself,
And makes up
part of,
Of who I am.
The impact
they have,
The waves
they cause,
Reaches further
than,
Than they can
see.
Despite
myself,
Often
feeling hollow,
Empty, yet
full of torment,
Despite this,
And the hopelessness
around,
In my friends,
And in my
faith is a glimmer,
Glimmer of
hope.
And that is
what carries me forward.
The Road has
and will be long,
Long and
hard,
More so than
I,
I can put
into words,
Especially
in this,
A humble Poem.
But in the
end,
My faith in
my friends,
And in my God,
Is what will
see me through,
Out of this
darkness.
It will take
a long time,
But as long
as I have friends,
Friends who
stick with me (which I do not find easy, as they seem to fall like flies)
And my faith
in God,
I will
eventually,
Eventually
get to a place,
Place where Instead
of,
Of Surviving,
I will be
able to thrive.
So the tears
can finally end.
And I do so
long for that day to, eventually, come……..
So this is my latest poem,
Love and hugs to all readers,
Natalie Xxx
